I’m not here to tell you everything’s going to be okay cause right now i know you feel that it will never be. I won’t tell you that it’s okay and you’ll be fine cause right now that’s the last thing you want to hear. I won’t hurry you, i know right now it’s so hard for you to accept everything. I know it hurts you a lot and i won’t tell you tomorrow is another day. I won’t say that’s just so easy and you’ll get over it eventually. I won’t tell you what you need to do and force you to forget everything. Because i know you don’t need any of those. Don’t worry i won’t force you to forget, i won’t force you to stop being sad and miserable.
Go on cry and cry a river until you get tired. You don’t want to get up? That’s fine. Just lay there all day and all night. And if you don’t want to eat, then go ahead, i won’t force you to eat if that’s what you want. Be miserable, be hard headed, do whatever you think that will express how broken you are. I won’t stop you. Do it if you think that’s one of the things you want to do when you’re broken.
Right now, i know you need and ear who’s willing to listen. You need a shoulder you can cry on. You need someone who’ll hug you tight ‘till you fall asleep. I know you just need someone who will never gonna leave you at the moment while you feel so alone and broken.
No one knows how you feel right now. No one can tell how broken you are inside. No one can see how your heart is bleeding at the moment and how you’re trying to put bandage in every wound. No one can feel how much amount of pain you’re carrying inside you. But trust me, i can feel it, i can see it in your eyes how broken you are. I know how you feel just by feeling your touch. Just by looking at you while you’re busy faking a smile, while you’re uttering the words you are okay.
I want to tell you that it’s okay to feel that way, you are a human and you are capable to feel it. What you are feeling is not only completely valid but necessary because it will make you stronger more than you ever know. Don’t be in hurry, don’t listen to what they say, you don’t have to move on right now if you don’t want to do it yet, you don’t have to force yourself to forget because you can’t do it. I can’t promise you that you’ll get better soon, that the pain will fade tomorrow or the next day, that everything will get better soon, it will eventually, at the right time. For now, all you can do is take your time. Take all the time you need.
